01012012

second year countdown with them , same as last year . we went Desa Park City for watched the fireworks .! damn amazing , wonderful .that's one of the reason why I want been there , doesn't need crowd with people , can sat on the lawn and enjoy . hehe . is happier because gang is still on beside me . I love you ALL .!!

Do a wish and promise for myself . May 2012 is a wonderful year . May everything could be fine :) May da gang still beside me when I'm upset . :) .

actually I care about my future bf is younger than me . I care , I care ,I dislike . So , it will same answer also . LOL .

met a troublemaker , ISH !

29122011

teared the book into pieces , means all is over .

5 days more . I'm worrying right now .

27122011

是我不懂事。或许吧，不了解的，只会觉得我很不知足现在目前拥有的东西。那天在fb的status，朋友都来comment了。他们都劝我知足点啦。或许是真的吧。

haiz .算了吧。

我会改掉的。

因为，真的很难忍。很讨厌。

我真的很没有用。 :(

25122011

Merry christmas to all my lovely :) ♥


the 2nd time spent my christmas with them , my dearest friends


This year we decided went THE CURVE for movie then count down !:)
sad to say , members of the gang is getting less and less . perhaps , they got own event .
but it's enough for me !

I love fireworks , even christmas eve didn't have .
BUT I love christmas also . it brings me back to my childhood .
I still believe santa in this planet . hehe .
when I saw the santa , I am so ecxited and happy !!! yeah yeah ..



hehe . .


MERRY CHRISTMAS . :)

sometimes , pretend can win everythings .

21122011

wed ,

start from this week , will be more free because classes had finished already .
just left tomorrow test and friday presentation , then I gonna say goodbye for my sem 2
time flies and shall admit and promise and force myself not give any excuse to fail my or get unexpectated result again ! " EXCUSE ALWAYS MAKE PEOPLE FAILED !" . one of my motivation :) .



my first handmade assignment , seriously I very proud of this . I could not believe I can done it with this results , with simon's idea and papa helping and mama advicing . = I done I done =
frankly to say , I AM NOT WILLING to put it at school lab . I want to put at my room as decoration . my little hand . :)



lovely jane . :) , when jane redo her model assignment . I try to fit my head into the hole of the cardboard . I can fit it and we are so happily when captured the picture . We don't even care other people sight and opinion . :) .
and one more thing to go ! . we are keep nagging why OT gonna do graphic design's job !! . huh .^_^



one is mine , one is jane . :))


Oh ya , cousin had came back from singapore for vacations . what the day that I expected for many times many days . finally they did . lovely poh wei and me chat a lots .haha . and yet we went shopping and the result I can concluded is " next time gonna shop start from 10am " . ^_^




I will struggle with some problems , but mom always be my good listener .
even I can't get rid of it , mom also will give me best advise .
but say through my heart . I can't stand by anymore , don't know what the day I am going mad !



haix . but , just comfort myself , I can get the benefits at the last .

16122011

The most suffering period that I having now ,

a lots of assignment and tests .

huh T.T

keep fighting with my time and hope could finish it .

5 essays that need to submit by next week .

two tests on next week.

proposal haven completed yet .

my mind was stuck definitely . I believe , yann and others classmates also .

I afraid night coming , It shown me a brand new day gonna start and time left less .

I have no dare to sleep because homework haven done yet .

damn depressed and hopeless ! :(

I still remember the day when I waited the bus in front of college , the sky was dark and it's raining and heavy rain ! thunderstorm and rainwater were grand . Standing there like alien and alone . The feeling was damn bad and helpless . tears dropped and it told me that I must be the strongest and no defeat by any obstacles ! I hope I can did it . !!

the following weeks is the climax week of this semester and also of the year .

can't celebrate christmas and also new year I think .

ouch . my fireworks :( , can anyone bring me along ? I really love to see the fireworks .!!

I still remember the scene of last year , it was amazing !

but this year , I have to face my books . :(

*sad*

have to continue my homework . bye :)

12122011

SATURDAY .

the first we out for searching our travelling agensi for our first conference .

We decided search at petaling street .

unlucky , they had moved to area around Sg wang , jalan Alor I think :)

5 girls met at petaling street and had our brunch - asam laksa .*yummy*

after that , walked to lrt station . oh yeah , journey started!

we are OT's girls , we have the most happy , funny , and friendly face * self-esteem again *

anyway , the picture is the most funny especially poteto yann . she opened her leg until the widest . can you imagine the context and yet station had myriad of people . haha :)

and you know me well , you should know I can whatever face if I want @.@

girls in the LRT ！

travelling agensi , I think the boy already afraid of us ! haha .we are out of controlling .==

Mission completed and shopping time started !

poteto want to purchase a dinner dress .

so , we accompany her and choose for her !

it was not bad and I had the chance to try the long dinner dress .!

in love when wear it . when I had got the chance to wear it ? haha

Don't know what happened to my stomach ,

like a hungry ghost !

haha .

snowflakes !

and the climax of the day !

the cashier was made carmen and ching yan angry because of the offer voucher .

they revenged way was interested .

Sg Wang offered some coupon voucher , then snowflakes is involving now until jan 2012 !

the two girls were grabbed all the coupon at the info counter ,

and they started to give the voucher just beside the snowflake's counter .

I thought the cashier should furious and he can't do anythings on us ! . haha

umbrella girls ..

the time was late , we are afraid because we walked from times squares to station hang tuah .

distance is not short , so we took umbrella as our weapon ! . special way we took !

first time take bus at kl around 9.30pm .

really need to shout " mummy , daddy "

I need walked back to my house and yet there was dangerous ! .

anyway , it's safe :)

hehe :)

08122011

06122011

这个12月一点也不期待，一点也不像往年一样。该死的final,该死的assignment,该死的test,该死的presentation .还有一个大project 。这，真的让我很无奈，很压力。很想大喊。突然间的海啸，老师要我们在下星期presentation 加test .还有project的meeting .我该怎么去分身。？anatomy是我的死穴，这一回的test还是我最矛盾的chapter .真的很害怕，很压力。很怕SCORE不到分数。真的很怕。怎么感觉group的assignment都是我一个人在啃 ，我是无所谓。可是，有时候却很无奈。

很想大喊，喊出心中的不爽 ；很想有个拥抱，这可以让我大声地哭出来。

现在，需要一个慰问，一个安慰，再也不会像以前那样的释放出来。而是，往自己的吞回下去。或许，我会觉得毕竟是自己的问题，何必去向别人哭哭啼啼的呢。告诉自己什么都好 ‘忍一忍吧。’ 。

陈小姐，真的哭了。听了也心痛。

说的真对，再坚强的女生都回败给爱情这东西。

心里的小秘密，不想说也没有必要让别人知道。

3122011

胃痛是我的噩梦。

我的生活规律一直都好正常，晚上10点多就on bed了。

不过最近，很忙，功课，笔记一大堆。

所以托到很晚才睡。然后肚子饿也没有去理，一直抄，一直做。

结果星期四的晚上，胃痛了。

痛得我睡不到，也很辛苦。

去到学校也把吃的吐出来。

回到家，就睡着了。

结果一通信息就把我叫出去了，

是我爱玩还是在家太闷？
去看了 [大英雄小男人]。也去吃了最爱的蛋糕！因为肚子很饿很饿。

回到家，又继续睡，一睡就睡到天亮。

生活就是这样，

好了，待会儿去melaka咯。:)))

01122011

已经是12月了。

很快真的过的很快。

我能是位好leader吗，要怎样才能成功？

我不确定，也不晓得。

时间，经历，让我变得更成熟 ：）

加油。！

29112011

I have bad temper and bad emotional if I didn't manage things well !

I'm a impatient person , once I get any work , I must done it in a minute !

So ,it may cause reckless and I already suit into the environment .

Things occurred on today also .

I just remember I am freaking fed up and almost want to shout " FUCK "

I black my face and shown I really anxious ！

I hate I dislike my behaviour !

I'd like change it since long time ago , but I does not change it either . :(

I believe my friends can feel it . I am so sorry .

and yet , I hate my appetite . once I ate wrong food , it could let me feel uncomfortable in the whole day ! . like , I ate western breakfast and still now I feel like want to vomit .

and MY STUDY PLAN WAS FAILED !

really really really anxious , fed up , ish !

28112011

闷倒快发狂了。

我很不喜欢这样的日子，

很废！很没用！

明天以后，一定会更好！

麦当劳麦当劳，我来咯！

蛙哈哈哈哈哈哈哈。

26112011

have so many story want to tell , but should start from when ?

haha .

The story in my mind right now is happy happy and happy !

I am become so lazy since the break started .

ouch , have to start revision next week ! *I SWEAR *

still remember the restaurant I mentioned in my previous blog .

ya , actually is -- DE PASTRY CHEF -- .. haha ..

my wednesday dessert -- > chocolate mousse < --

can see my happy face . * self-esteem* . hehe

Thursday .

I don't know what happen to my appetite .

feel starve all the time . =.=

I ate roti cheese kaya nan (no sure correct spelling or not :] ) , then I bought two packs of fruit .

I still feel not full , yan and jane were shocked and asked what's wrong with you ! .haha

because usually I will skipped all my meal at school ..

after that , I bought a bar chocolate *dove brand *

sista yan introduced me this brand , I fall in love with it since my first bite !

sosadtosaymoralclassgonnacancelinthenextfollowingweeks :(

>.<

Friday .

starve like a hungry ghost .

asam laksa is not enough for me! haha

oH yeah , watched movie with da gang again ·

THE TWILIGHT SAGA - BREAKING DAWM PART 1

it was so amazing ! can't wait for the part 2 !

and yet , we been to DE PASTRY CHEF again .

dareen was said " it's the forth time I been here in a week !"

OMG . haha ..

so happy with them ! yak yak yak .

Saturday .

accidently received a message from yannie .

so , shopping time !!

yannie be the driver of the day , so brave first time drove here and we all don't know road .

that mean , we were lost at the last . haha .

a month later is the christmas , decoration of sunway pyramid is such amazing !

Mark taught me some facebook chat emotions , it's so cute .., especially the robot ,whahaha. I am addictite already ^_^

hahahahaahah .

24112011

midnight here right now ,

and I could not fall asleep yet , keep awake !

really want to say ****

kinda tired for this past 3 days ,

previous 2 days is need to complete my notes .

but now , is so awake .

what wrong with me ?!

but now , seriously I 'm so happy .

supper and tea with da gang , a new place explore by them . - menjalara DE PASTRY CAFE .

first time been there , affordarble price , environment also ok .

and the most important , got plenty of cakes can choose~ hehe . * i am the cake lover *

chill with them until 12am .

seriously , I love them so so so much !!

I can dont have bf , but I must have them !

haha ..

later class have presentation for english 201 ,

good luck and hope rizhuan will appear ! *pray hardly*

I am so happyyyy ^_^

ouch , there you are !

nerd . nerd . nerd . nerd . nerd . nerd .

my brain gonna burst due to lack of sleep .

my brain is empty now , I don't know and forgot what I wanna do later on .

damn .

how to create a fairy tale ?

how ? how ? how ?

I have no idea . :(

20112011

finally i tried the chatime . :)

每个人心里都有个小秘密，你也是。我也是。

17112011

我好累，好累。心理和生理上都好疲倦。我想我会有疯掉的一天。

我给自己好大压力。我一直告诉自己不能输！

我好害怕输得那一刻。

期中考考得也不赖，最后的FOT也得到了8.6分。

其实我的目标在9，可是得到8/7也算ok拉。

anatomy我真的怕了，为什么脑袋会一片空白。

好难哦，我很难明白。：（

怎么办好。

今天老师通知我们2012 International Occupational Therapy Conference

venue : hong kong polytechnic university .

好想去啊，只要找到sponser，应该顺利成功吧。哈哈。

妈妈相信也批准我去吧，因为有很多benefit !

my english class .

stress . tired . stress . i want to shout out .

emo-ing .

15112011

The most feared after exam is when receive the results .
I got the psychology and anatomy marks .
Psychology was on my thought got 9/10 ,
but , anatomy ..
frankly , I am not satisfied , I got 7/10 .

nevermind , it become my motivation to get highest marks in my final .
I believe I can do it well .

dont despair first ! :)
good luck .

12112011

星期六。

终于看到了一直想要看的电影。- 那些年，我们一起追过的女孩。
因为之前错过了love you you ,所以这次一定不能再错过了。
没错也不赖，亲爱的莉莹也出席了。
好久好久没有见到她了，她依然那么的孩子气。
加油吧，我的好姐妹。♥

戏里的故事是有点真实，
中学时期，我不特出，感情故事也没有他人的完美。
只不过是一直守护在一个不值得我付出的男生上。
不知道何时，再也不期待不守护再也不付出。
可是，故事的结局，
说真的，为什么两个相爱的人却不能在一起。
为什么。或许，现实中的我们也不能那么的完美吧 。
心也有在流眼泪。




人渐渐的成长，
以前的幼稚。想起来真的讨厌自己。
明白了是非黑白。
我家没有别人家那么的富裕，只不过是过得去。
之前考到了车牌，就一直吵要车，却没想到那负担。
是，有车了真的方便很多，可是给爸爸妈妈来说真的是负担，
我不想他们那么辛苦，为了那么琐碎的事情而吵架。
想了好久，可以说是反省了。
知道我现在真的不需要了。有时候搭搭巴士也不错的。

其实，在做每件事情我都想很久很久，
包裹需要到的电脑，
想要一部laptop，老实说，我想要了也快好几月。
因为我现在的这部桌位电脑，一直出问题，
我不能predict到它几时会在闹别扭。
有时候，在紧急的状况下，我真的不知所措。
也不是说，我每次只会靠说，却做不到。
而是我真的需要想很久。
也不知道怎么和爸爸开口。
家家有本难念的经。
有时候，真的很羡慕那些不用为这些琐碎事而烦恼的人。


心中那种纳闷心情，好想撞墙死掉算了。。

12.12pm

I don't know what happened to my blog , So , I convert to the latest version .
My plan for my mid-term break were totally spoilt and failed . haha
I planned one day for ONE UTAMA
I planned one day for Mid Valley .
But , I didn't go either one of them .
I planned have to start my revision -anatomy , But I just start one page .
I planned have finished my presentation for psychology , But I just finished 4 slides .
LoL .bloody hell .
because of this break , I thought I can become more motivate ,
but , is become more lazier .
ish ish ish .

I am expecting the movie " YOU ARE THE APPLE OF MY EYE "
hohohoho :)

你，想 ，太 ， 多 ， 了 。

那天以后。

hellooooo , 电脑终于修好了。GOD BLESS幸好在我考完试后就修好了，
不然我有得回学校赶我的assignment了。
不过，也不赖，我蛮喜欢回学校的，
我喜欢一个人静静的读书看书，研究一些课本上的casestudy 。
因为我读的这一刻，基本上是没有特定的练习题。
通通都是一些case问题，没办法，都只好自己上网看看。
其实，有点怀念数学。我根本没有机会碰到。
碰到的只有biology . = =
sem 2 读了也有一个多月，发现自己越来越喜欢我的这一课 - occupational therapy ..
我个人的感觉 。- 就好像psychology + physiotherapy 。
若我有机会，我会向小孩这一方向去发展。因为怎么说小孩都是无辜的，
他们带着希望来到这世界，却需要面对这生活上的问题，- 过动儿，自闭儿。

anyway , mid-term 也考完了。都蛮满意的。
只是 anatomy有点不开心也不满意。
气死我。
miss ,你让我们体会到，人真的不可貌相。
看你平时一副不惊人的样子，
可是出的考题却那么刁难我们。
做考题的时候，真的抓头了。
算啦算啦，final的时候要加把劲了。/.\

我们的课室虽然只有8个人，可是我们超开心了。

有penang 的yann and gaby

有perak的nanas jane

有kl的bibby , yan , renu ，vivien

还有sabah 的ema 。

虽然年龄上也有距离，可是我们的废点极高的。哈哈

考完试的那一天，我们约好了一同去TIMESQUARE *VIVIEN didn't join us * - TOWER HEIST .

不错，蛮好看的。 ^_^

还有还有，终于买到了一双属于自己的包鞋。*脚不会发臭拉*

拉拉拉拉拉。哈哈。

本来星期六那天要到mid valley 的pc fair ,还有love you you .

真的活该，love you you 下映了。/.\

结果也没有去到了。一整天呆在家里。

可是，晚上的时候也他们一同去看电影- IN TIME .

好看！！ 电影里都是用时间来计算的，真的好看。

哈哈。

假期了假期了。可是还有功课要做。 = =

星期一是婆婆的忌日 ，不知不觉您也离开我们9年了。

我们怀念您 ：）

3.12p,

using college pc to update :)

this week is my exam week ,
put all my effort on it . hope can get a better result :)


i more use to stay at library even is not my exam day .
maybe i already suitable the environment where suitable for me to do revision .
but , air-cond is freaking cold .

computer sent to repair again and again .
hatred , always spoilt spoilt spoilt .
I still need to do my slides ,
hope can purchase a laptop ,
but also have to wait my coursin .
have no choice ..
answer also = wait .


bla bla bla ,
tomorrow anatomy exam , GOD bless .!

9.50am

sunday morning , good morning to my precious .
yesterday was my boring ? unpredictable day ?
yet I admit .
yesterday chatted with dearest friend ,he told me a lots of things .
haha . I feel happy someone will jealous because of me .
haha . actually funny and apperciate to hear it .
anyway , I also like that , the same answer I will gave .

accidently received a call from simon ,
he call me ta have a tea .
due to some reasons , I hang out with them .
I am happy because can meet two of my best friends when I was secondary school .
erm . perhaps .time really can change somethings ,
I felt that we are not close compare to formerly.
but I believe our friendship can be everlasting .:)

have check through some shops ,some brands .
addidas , nike , vanz , converse ... still wondering want buy pair of shoes or backbag .
or I buy both ?
I need a pair of shoes ,so more easily for me to school and yet my foot will not smelly .
I need a big backbag , so I could put my everythings inside .
my current is big enough , but I still feel uncomfortable when carry it .
*_* so ?

tomorrow still got one more test to go , psychology . one of my interested subject .
so . I WON'T GIVE UP ..
hehe :))) ..





* god bless you and me all the time , thanks GOD give me a chance to live in this brilliant world <3 *

7.53pm

I have been finished my first anatomy test today ,
it is so easy , easy until I can't expect miss will come out this kind of question * == *
I put all my effort on those toughest chapter , but the questions is the most easier part .
Thanks GOD , I still remember how to answer it !

I have count the weeks for my semester 2 , after my mid-term break ,
still have 6 more weeks to go .
but , I feel that i have learnt nothing for this semester .
how ? can I answer all the questions during my final ?
I don't know ! *_*


btw , I am so happy .
I had know a friend who come from labuan .
LOL . haha :)

3.58pm

don't really like today , getting moody . :(

as normal stay at library for revision .
*next saturday mid-term exam . *

the time get closer the more afraid I have .
eyelids want to drop already , freaking tired .

I dislike the relationship right now ,
why not we like before , can talk can play .
are you trying to escape me ?
perhaps .
just now , so despair you treat me like transparent .
we still friend right ,even I told you somethings you dislike before .

damn the bus ticket seller .

I won't sit that bus start from now ! NO MANNER !



*thought today can see you in school , but now . despair again :( *

what the stupid day , stupid mood I have right now !

6.47pm-12/10/2011

the day finally came . - interview with official MQA .


Honestly , I involve many activity in this school .-KLMU.
perhaps chinese students just fingers counted.
Well , because of interview ,
all of us pretend well , dressing properly .
but ..... sigh ....
GOD BLESS US .!
three of the official - lecturer from UKM , KOLEJ SAINS BERSEKUTU , and one of the lady from MALAYSIA QUALIFICATION AGENCY .

I was the first group ,
three of them were so strict , they ask a lots of question . T.T
some from the syallabus , some is regarding to our school .
is so luckily I have do some revision on the previous day !
still can answer some of it .
I'm still worried until now .

T.T

* actually my school also not bad , at least I can know more friends ^.6*

哭笑不得。

我该怎么好，把考试丢开。不理了。
做好本分就好 =）

怎么好，被一些问题纠缠着，
真的不知道该哭还是笑好 。？
无奈。

若角色换一换，那就完美了，
但，发梦吧。
那是不可能的，
朋友，好朋友，
你永远都是。
因为你不是该属于的他，
要怎么跨过线 ，那也是一种极限。
要怎么付出，答案也是一样，朋友。
可是我还是一样 ，怎么事情会变到这样。
你要的是原本的她 ，怎么会地球转一转到我这呢？

真的不想结果变得很冷淡。

9.24

mid term exam will be on three weeks later .
I can't catch what lecturer taught .
GOD , I'm afraid .!
can give some clue for us ?
how even we read it ourself , but still can't get rid of it .
seriously , we need a proper teacher who can teach us well .
I need professional but not touch and go .

I hate those who are so annoying ,

It really make antipathy ,

I am not arrogant ,
but you really make me dislike you.

how could people will be like that ?

i don't know . :)

Opps .

due to some of the reason , my course didn't get the qualification of MQA :(
I am shocked since I knew the news .
So , the official of school inform three of us have to interview with official MQA .
What the madly hell , We all were worried . excited and bla bla bla .
interview will be on 13 of October , fingers crossed and everything could be alright :)
So today lecturer need us clean up our OT's lab .
and I found there is a lot of funs . haha :D


physical equipment .

physical equipment.

physical equipment , test our fingers can work until which level .

I got only 30.

this one is for children .

still not yet touch that topic .

so , it may test the ability of a children .

after we arranged it :D . ( tiny ) hehe .!

my day ♥

oh ya , just hang out with my da gang .
oh my dear friends , I really had a lot of fun .
haha .. even just a short moment , but I really happy ..
the laugh . the smile that I laugh from heart .
Is long time I didn't have it .
and yet only that gang can gave me !

I really love you all !
seriously !
wahahahahahahahahaha :D
recall back plenty of story .
haha . i'm happy and pretty enough !

不肯定

我不肯定 ， 心情突然变得好糟糕好糟糕 ， 很想发泄 ！
身体很疲倦 ，很累 ， 头很痛 。
可是还有一大堆的assignment等着我 。
可是不是即可要交上去的 ，可是现在我就很拼命的赶 ，
是自己活该吗 ？

我不肯定 ，是我manage自己的时间不好吗 ？
这学期的科目都是要背的。
为了更加的明白，我也在做小笔记 ，
可是 ， 明明是完成了 ，感觉就很差，做不好。

我快崩溃了，我不想要这样！


心情很不好，你在哪？
你比我更加快乐吧！

Just a smile ;)

mood is getting better and better but don't know why .
love the way that I having now .
revison everyday let me feel more understand .
I like to be alone , is not worst but great !
perhaps some of you will feel i'm insane or crazy .
I believe not many people like to be alone , as I told " different people have different view and different way in their study life , but for me I more prefer stay at library " ! hoho :)
somemore I don't want to waste my precise time ! . TIME IS GOLD FOR ME .
last minutes only will leads me dead ! .
sat at library can let me more concentrate and can finish my homework ASAP . ^.^
plus some of the reasons , I LOVE LIBRARY .

*groan* , need to finish it faster ! hehe . :)

OT .

cause I'm OT .
I willing to service those facing problem in pursing in their occupational :)



* i love today and i'm happy . *

one-by-one.

last saturday went timesquare with college friends .
bought a watch but it spoilt already T.T
have to go for exchange ! ish .



my new book for this semester and the following semester .
it's cost me RM 99 , is the cheapest i found between some some shop :)
i love this book , content shown clearly description about all the biological term or details .

:)
semester 2 have started two week already ,
erm , and yet I need to suit into a new study environmont instead of semester 1.
but I miss semester 1 , there have a lots of my friends . but there are not for now .
all of them are gone :(

start to suit my classroom got only few people . not only my major subjects .
one of my minor subject- ENGLISH 201 DRAMA N ROLE PLAY .
actually this subject is fun and enjoy .
but , classroom got only few people and don't know where the people go .
from this subject , I know more about ENGLISH . :)

another , is my psychology subject .
even that only one class we have been attend ,
the first class already taught us a lots !- STRESS .
I know more about myself .
what is stress ?
that are some nonspecific response of the body to any demand or the arousal . it may cause either from physical nor mental .
human being will leads to dealth if without any stress !
from this , I think about it .
some people always live in a happy , enjoyable environment , is there have no any stress ?
some of the people always said " i'm no stress at all , " is it really ?
i don't know yet . haha :)

whatever , should insists on my plan now !
hurayyy . keep ahead , okay ? i would like that also !

*today is your birthday , so . happy birthday :) . time really can change a lots , can't even see your face in college .maybe timing not right , course not same . *