2012年7月31日星期二

6.45

                                                                               hi,july. 
the only one in the world 
you have been passed so fast. and my life in july full of joy? erhem. perhaps.
short semester is killing me. tests, assignments,presentation come in once. 
the whole month just like chasing the time for doing this doing that. =,=
how i wish could modified my brain into super strong memory and i might put all notes into it after the lecturing. 
besides,
except go for college, the second thing I used to do was went to cousin's shop. 
the peaceful place for me to chill , and also can consider as a place where someone can talk to me. 
because sister and me also clashing with the time. if i stay at home, just like talking to the air. 
so, better go to a place can let me relax and chill. :)

july, 
the most poorest month .:(
since i need to pump petrol, just realize money goes fast like water.
every week has to spend at least rm100 on petrol,parking fees,foods,assignments....
I daren't go anywhere and spend anymore money, 
almost 2 months didn't go for movie,shopping . 
just hope can reduce my cost in the month and go for jogging instead of cinema. 
no doubts, mummy sister are nagging me because i am too fat :( fat round, thigh bigger, calf muscle bigger , all are bigger than before. 
I am lazy and do not exercise much. haha. 

nevertheless, 
in the mid-month of july, 
my night life was started. 
beloved cousin were brought sister and me went to pub.
the silly me did the silly thing until now still can't forget about it
felt extremely guilty and I DO NOT REGRET OF DRUNK AND DRINK SO MUCH.
consider as a good experience in my life. 
got my first badly drunk in age 19. I HAD TO RECORD IT IN MY LIFE BOOK. 
so next time, I CAN REMIND ME AND CONTROL MYSELF! <3

very long time didn't meet my gangs. 
really miss the moment when we chill. tea. talking nonsense, pm, and so much. 
urghhh. :-S




- thing comes when at the right moment. - 


a short visit during june with HOD, he will leave and continue his PHD at INDIA end of next month, miss :(


people change because of growing up. - cherish,appreciate. 

2012年7月25日星期三

7.47



















还有很多时候,还会独自个人乱想。

一切随缘吧。

2012年7月17日星期二

miss.























这2天都没有课,所以也往亲戚店跑了。
哈哈。


有时候,也得相信这世界上是有奇迹与惊喜的。
嗯,
今天回到家,发现书桌上出现了一封信。
心里出现了疑惑,到底是什么啦?
是popular终于知道错了,寄会员卡来?
不是,看看;也没有特殊的记号。
但,往后翻却发现了jabatan kidmat negara 的。
一看到那字,立刻出现2个问题。
1。又要我回去?
2。还是寄sijil 来呢?
可是,通通都不可能阿。
一拆开了,原来他们对我住院期间做出赔偿。
我还以为他们忘了这回事情,原来没有^^
心情开心死了,虽然只是少许的数目,但是在我最穷这期间救了我。:)
感谢。

也去翻翻旧相片,才发现我怀念了。
怀念里面的一切,
还有,那时候的我真的好瘦!
我要回去那时候的身材阿。

哈哈哈哈,好了,要继续温习了^^

2012年7月13日星期五

6.33



alcohol may bring you happiness at the moment,
but would give you uncountable of suffering.
well, I am not able to sleep for whole night.
slept at 3am, but then woke up at 5.30am
thanks GOD today is Saturday, and I don't need to do anything!


sometimes, 
I really hard to communicate with YOU.
YOU make me feel more afeared . 

2012年7月9日星期一

life



因为受过伤害,
所以不再有任何期待。


你,得出现,
让我再次微笑。
我不晓得有没有这能力去改变你,
但,我会尽力的。 =)

2012年7月2日星期一

.........




一个不听话的夜晚,
冷清,无奈,心情起伏。
封闭自己在房间里,看着平日看的笑话。
但,一点也不想笑。
看着自己的笔记,心却往外跑了。
是否我没有资格?
是否已经成了道疤?
故事背后,又有谁晓得里面的剧情。
各个的意见有好有坏,
实在地想不开的我还在圈子的兜圆圈,
兜着兜着,雨下起了,这不再是往日的绵绵细雨;而是洪雨。
虽然没有雷电乱了我思绪,但却冷冻了我的心。


超没有安全感的,
女超人何时才能起飞?飞机何时才能降落?船何时才能靠岸?
风何时才能停?雨何时才能转小?雷电何时才能停止?
心何时才能停止乱想?
这一切这一切,依然还是个未知数。
保留着的空位,依然还在保留。

我可以很快乐,但同时我也可以很不快乐。
可以因为一件很简单的事情狂笑一整天。
也可以因为无心的话伤心一整天。