9.41pm

two more weeks later i will leave for my clinical section.
erm,
and got my latest timetable for following weeks,
super stressful.
8days unstoppable tests and midterm and assignment and also revision.
oh godmama. you are making us stress. and BIG HEAD.
the feeling just like "i need a help :("


*thanks for accompany me*

10.24pm

你早已出现在我的歌声里，谢谢你的陪伴；你的温度。
未来的一个月，你是否还会对我坚持？

5.00pm

mind goes blank again. Writing is the best way to distress or release my emotional. date getting near, quite scare and not really want to leave. even, I just go for one month, but the feeling just like killed me seriously. I'm extremely dependent on other or relay on oneself easily. At first, I am so excited when I knew the place where I go, but now and yet I got my next year practical schedule, I'm nearly mad. Can be say like that, start from April 2013, I'll be going to Johor every two months gap? what the heck it is? it's might be a better change for me and as well as classmate say we will be more happy ler?. But, I'm too dependent on family?! and my friend?! 

school's planning was ... , not really can catch up. my mind and heart became super lazy! T.T

being loved and love other there are two different things.

when it occurs in between and cannot be tell, there are suffered.

#i'mnotwillingletitgo,howaboutyou?#

11.08pm

9.33 GG.com

开学至现在，真正上过课的日子，我想手指都算到了。

妈妈啊，我好煎熬，我要上课！

T。T

也不能责怪老师，看见他们那么的忙碌，

也希望新的lecturer快点出现！

剩下practical还有2个月，我不希望到时候赶火箭般。

我的生活真的好没有意义。每天都好颓废。

真的希望有个人可以盖醒我，我失去了方向。

- -- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

#first time :) .can just stay longer with me?. 

smirk. 

9.56pm

Listen to the words, and you can be fooled. Look at the actions, and you can be fooled. Feel deeply into your heart, and then you will know the truth. Who makes your heart soar now? Well, what are you waiting for?  - message from GOD . 


close up my eyes, 
take a depth breathe,
and think. 

= answer come = 

thanks for people around keep comfort me.
thanks for mummy best advice. 
love you mummy, glad to have you mummy!

mummy's advice almost is the best compare to all!
she know what I want, she know what I need.

Mummy, I am sorry always make you worry about me.
Mummy, I am sorry I'm not good as other.
Mummy, I am sorry sometime blame you for not doing this doing that.
Mummy, 
you are my only love in this world. 
the love never change since I arrived to this world.

Mummy, 
there're problems keep around me right now.
I couldn't manage it well, 
I don't know who's correct and wrong.
I just dislike keep feeling deep inside heart.
It's just killing me if I do not pour it out .
So, I like to talk, to share while I having problems

Somehow, 
mummy, I still like to share with you at last .
I know you got what I meant and 
you daughter, me really don't know what suppose to be the next.

people always says,
choice is on your hand.its either to choose or just let it go.
but, 
so confused. so confused. 

feel so insecure for prolonged time.
mummy,
its right for me? 

10.27am

STRESS!negative thinking! all rubbish come in my mind!
新的学期真的很大的改变
head走了，剩下老师处理全部的东西。
教课，处理practical的东西，等等。
看见她这样也心酸 。

因为剩下2个月的时间，就要面临practical的生活了。
有点惊讶，有点期待，最大的某过于 压力。
要将所有课本上的东西搬上医院上用。
害怕错误那一定有的拉。

开学了也一星期，也崩溃了一星期。
答应自己不可以再那么颓废了。
讨厌每次面对问题的时候，只会逃避。
一直用睡觉来当借口。
昨晚也睡了好久好久。

睡饱了，再次的加油！


笑吧！大声地笑！疯狂的笑！因为那才是属于真正的你！
哈哈哈哈 :D


#把心放开，事情未必是你想得那样。#

2.16pm

semester 5 started on today!
life is getting more challenging, informed by lecturer will be has a clinical posting on November until December!

excited man :) . hwaiting!


#because?

12.21am

it should be a happy day.MORON.
#heart non-stop bleeding#
am I deserved the way?

9.01pm

#where my superman?,i need you to cure my boredom. :S #
lifeless holidays.

11.13pm

had been nuts for couple of hours. .care too much and insane. #heartbroken for pretty sure, but why am i still blaming myself for the unchangeable story?

*cry*cares*annoying*,disturbing* .

12.42am

ambush in the heart for so long time?floating feelings ever appear on me right now.
the effect after choosing a horror. O_O
mamamiya, I am afraid of it.


￥I know it is special enough , # special thanks ￥
HOLD IT TIGHT :)