7.24pm

我很坚强的，对吗？

10.42pm

心情交集，我很难受。

回忆冲昏了思绪，*消极的很* 

我好羡慕，真的好羡慕。

影子，你可以消失吗？

3.16pm

 我快回家了！。
5星期，学到的东西也很多，很珍惜。
但是，在这5星期里，同时也发生很多事情。
同时，我也只让自己伤心2天。
心好灰；我会觉得自己一直努力的维持着，是没用的。
以后的事情，会怎样，我真的不知道。

Erhrmm。

10.01

人生嘛，总有起起落落。
经一事，长一智。
忍一忍，啃一啃；就没事了。
一开始，哭得像迷路的小孩找不到回家的方向。
仿佛......
大家也很难过，第一次大家如此的难过。
是否上天让大家开了个玩笑？
还是他让我们当作是考验。
心好疼，好难过。

一切会变好的，我不停的对自己说。
一定会变好。

week 2

                                            实习的日子步入了第二周。嗯，很想念家。

制服超级像清洁工。==

在医院依然遇到种种不一样的patient.

有些让你哭笑不得；有些让你懊恼。

我们ot部门有点不严，所以aunty都把我们带去庆祝deepavali &christmas了

那天吃了印度餐，可以说是来了这么久，吃过最丰富的一餐。

在家也随便的吃，以vegetables为主。

mutton超好吃！还有curry!

第一星期的pressure garment, 超级丑，也用了我们3天时间学会怎么去用车衣机。

那3天我们都搞得头大了！:))

hj

无意中出现了burn patient,我们又得再来车衣了。一开始真的脸色都变。

也很顺利了，车了上面那件裤子。^_^

foot splint.

sad case.

星期三往HDC department 走了几趟，

完成了它。

星期五再回去做检查，

可是病人在最后还是去世了。

短短2天，就这样没有了。

顿时，也有点接受不到==!

segamat，几乎每一天都有出现这些情景。-morning mist- 

太有吸引力了！

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life at segamat

finally practical life started.

i love i enjoy and learn lots of things 

its just awesome ! :D 

the only thing foods ==

dont know how to cook and nearby dun have much shops for us ..

hehhe

anyways

i kinda love this kind of urban life 

so relax and windy.. 

doesn't like kl, everything rush and hot weather

segamat here, even the weather is hot but also not crowded like kl. 

i love life here :D !!

10.42pm

ITS FRIDAY!!!
我等这天，等了好久好久！
只要相信，一切困难也能克服的！
我相信自己，相信自己能克服一切困难！ ：D

倒数一星期，我的另个人生记载又得开始囖！
心情很杂乱，害怕当然是有的拉，毕竟第一次到医院真正的接触到patient.
keep fighting :>

9.41pm

two more weeks later i will leave for my clinical section.
erm,
and got my latest timetable for following weeks,
super stressful.
8days unstoppable tests and midterm and assignment and also revision.
oh godmama. you are making us stress. and BIG HEAD.
the feeling just like "i need a help :("


*thanks for accompany me*

10.24pm

你早已出现在我的歌声里，谢谢你的陪伴；你的温度。
未来的一个月，你是否还会对我坚持？

1.36am

终于把presentation修修改改，温习准备给完成了。

这semester算是最充实的一晚吧。

希望老师可以接纳。

实在是太多assessment要明白了@@

各式各样，看来在实习有得受了。！

原来，这科一点也不简单！

冲吧，孩子。:)

5.00pm

mind goes blank again. Writing is the best way to distress or release my emotional. date getting near, quite scare and not really want to leave. even, I just go for one month, but the feeling just like killed me seriously. I'm extremely dependent on other or relay on oneself easily. At first, I am so excited when I knew the place where I go, but now and yet I got my next year practical schedule, I'm nearly mad. Can be say like that, start from April 2013, I'll be going to Johor every two months gap? what the heck it is? it's might be a better change for me and as well as classmate say we will be more happy ler?. But, I'm too dependent on family?! and my friend?! 

school's planning was ... , not really can catch up. my mind and heart became super lazy! T.T

being loved and love other there are two different things.

when it occurs in between and cannot be tell, there are suffered.

#i'mnotwillingletitgo,howaboutyou?#

11.08pm

3.51pm hoho :D

Finally day has been changed from lifeless to busy :D

I'm trying to make my day become full, so I won't feel boring.

last week was my hectic week among this few weeks i think.
had my first test in my sem 5, grasp head because not really can answer well >.<
assessments form were difficult until the max :S
the most guilty thing was told my mates class canceled but actually not, haha.
sorry madam :D
and three crazy buddies went to shopping！
we didn't went shopping since very long time ago.we missed it lots!
haha, shop slowly and kacau XD
hehe.


>.<

saturday was my shopping day with sister,
two people drove there and shop happily.

only her can do such face ==, i failed to do it XD

thanks for the flowers,my fren,

you are so cute with pink clothes.haha. :)

busying for practical stuff,

realize has to find room, transportation, broadband aren't a easy things =_=

hope can settle it pretty fine.

we are hwaiting for this acceptable challenges !

:D 

foods day ahead.

Since I'm so free, and sister went out,

the house only leave mummy and me right now.

i hate mummy every time release her anger on me.

I doing right and why she want like that. made me felt so helpless. =(

I'm jealous my sister now, because I felt bored while she got event .

feel like want to watch movie TT

I still remember my college mates asked me in between shopping and foods which you will spent most?

I answered them "shopping!", but during couple of months and time investigates. 

Foods are more in between! hehe.:D

Fish and Co. 

had been there twice, first time was my Singapore cousin introduced me.

super like for this (Y) 

the second time I was brought my friend and still cannot finished.hehe:)

mixed vegetables 

lamb steak

wasabi sotong 

look so yummy right?

actually its not from high-class restaurant,

and just a roadside restaurant - Ah Long -

during these few months, I gained weight because of foods from there.

my lovely cousin always fetch me out for supper =="

(Y)

burger kaw kaw with monster gangs.

(Y)

haha:D

so yummy and the chicken so big in size so i shared with other!

last but not least,

Thursday was my foods day also.

went out with monster gang,

and first time we ate we walked we teased we joked so much in a day.

love them ♥

♥first round, Sg Wang tea!

roaster chicken and barbecued pork

sandwich

:) 

we reached there early, so we planned had a walk from pavilion to klcc

LOL. we were nuts at that time. haha:)

♥second round. -JOGOYA- 

first time been there, 

the foods are freaking yummy and scrumptious.

a quick capture before started the war.haha:)

after one hour, super full and enjoyable.haha:) 

i miss greentea ice-cream TT

I used to hang out with them,

and still remember how crazy we are.haha :D

thank you, my monster gangs ♥♥♥

p.s. what can I do tonight, I hate to be alone TT

tuesday night.11.55pm

It guide me,
because you are girl,
you have the right to deserve better :)

another  life that I having now,
appreciate :)

my waist gonna cramp but I'm happy with it.

9.33 GG.com

开学至现在，真正上过课的日子，我想手指都算到了。

妈妈啊，我好煎熬，我要上课！

T。T

也不能责怪老师，看见他们那么的忙碌，

也希望新的lecturer快点出现！

剩下practical还有2个月，我不希望到时候赶火箭般。

我的生活真的好没有意义。每天都好颓废。

真的希望有个人可以盖醒我，我失去了方向。

- -- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -

#first time :) .can just stay longer with me?. 

smirk. 

9.56pm

Listen to the words, and you can be fooled. Look at the actions, and you can be fooled. Feel deeply into your heart, and then you will know the truth. Who makes your heart soar now? Well, what are you waiting for?  - message from GOD . 


close up my eyes, 
take a depth breathe,
and think. 

= answer come = 

thanks for people around keep comfort me.
thanks for mummy best advice. 
love you mummy, glad to have you mummy!

mummy's advice almost is the best compare to all!
she know what I want, she know what I need.

Mummy, I am sorry always make you worry about me.
Mummy, I am sorry I'm not good as other.
Mummy, I am sorry sometime blame you for not doing this doing that.
Mummy, 
you are my only love in this world. 
the love never change since I arrived to this world.

Mummy, 
there're problems keep around me right now.
I couldn't manage it well, 
I don't know who's correct and wrong.
I just dislike keep feeling deep inside heart.
It's just killing me if I do not pour it out .
So, I like to talk, to share while I having problems

Somehow, 
mummy, I still like to share with you at last .
I know you got what I meant and 
you daughter, me really don't know what suppose to be the next.

people always says,
choice is on your hand.its either to choose or just let it go.
but, 
so confused. so confused. 

feel so insecure for prolonged time.
mummy,
its right for me? 

10.27am

STRESS!negative thinking! all rubbish come in my mind!
新的学期真的很大的改变
head走了，剩下老师处理全部的东西。
教课，处理practical的东西，等等。
看见她这样也心酸 。

因为剩下2个月的时间，就要面临practical的生活了。
有点惊讶，有点期待，最大的某过于 压力。
要将所有课本上的东西搬上医院上用。
害怕错误那一定有的拉。

开学了也一星期，也崩溃了一星期。
答应自己不可以再那么颓废了。
讨厌每次面对问题的时候，只会逃避。
一直用睡觉来当借口。
昨晚也睡了好久好久。

睡饱了，再次的加油！


笑吧！大声地笑！疯狂的笑！因为那才是属于真正的你！
哈哈哈哈 :D


#把心放开，事情未必是你想得那样。#

2.16pm

semester 5 started on today!
life is getting more challenging, informed by lecturer will be has a clinical posting on November until December!

excited man :) . hwaiting!


#because?

12.21am

it should be a happy day.MORON.
#heart non-stop bleeding#
am I deserved the way?

9.01pm

#where my superman?,i need you to cure my boredom. :S #
lifeless holidays.

11.13pm

had been nuts for couple of hours. .care too much and insane. #heartbroken for pretty sure, but why am i still blaming myself for the unchangeable story?

*cry*cares*annoying*,disturbing* .

12.42am

ambush in the heart for so long time?floating feelings ever appear on me right now.
the effect after choosing a horror. O_O
mamamiya, I am afraid of it.


￥I know it is special enough , # special thanks ￥
HOLD IT TIGHT :)

that's good?

there are little bit more. 

story shouldn't end at this moment.

brighter story need more heart to complete it. 

when the story comes to climax,

smile would be a better choice for the subsequent.

No hopes, No expect;

just pick little bit more heart. 

Smiles for the good.

smirk for the cares. 

#life goes on#

- everyone in my life - 

9.21pm

finally exam was ended. 

i do not expect can get flying colour, just expect can get result which i can accept.

because of the trip, i wasted my 5 days times. 

hoho. X.P.

day 1. took 645pm flight to bangkok. reach there and took delicious dinner at chinatown.

super like for the foods there,2nd time been there and i still likey! 

day 2 , shopping day with the love <3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">

day3 , floating market and temple as usual. 

day 3, pattaya and love the beach there. sunburn and skin became dark.

all in one :D 

the trip was so relax for me, but at the last day, i was worrying .because final exam just start on the following week. I scare i didn't manage it well, yes, indeed, its kinda hard in both. but, at least i try my best :D 

one more thing, i hope i can get a big big big alarm, that can wake me up in the morning. idk what the heck am I, keep lying and not willing to wake up.=,=,

set 8am can woke at 10am,

set 4am can woke at 7.30am == 

Zzzz. i hate this kind of bad habit!

#thanks. :)