21.05

Friday . :)





many things need to settle . hoho ..

subjects and classes register had done . ! * no need worry already , now is yan turn*

*wink wink *

thailand baht had changed ! * hey , bangkok :) *

*wink wink *

simon's stove had borrowed ! * hey , bbq .. but i absent in majority percentage*

*sorry , guys*



tomorrow meet up with tan tan and sammi >.< *enjoying* hehe :)

it's over .

I took a deep breath and let it go .
* but my breath contain a lots of feelings , happy ? sad ? excited ? .*
yea , all came in a minute ,I can't differentiate it yet .
IT's action is faster than what I thought .
human is complicated .
human is greedy .
human is not satisfy what their have .
life is unfair .
some people can get what their need easily ,
or am I wrong ?
my answer : not sure .

I can't rest my mind . :( insomnia every nights .
it occurs since many weeks ago ,
I felt tired then I decided to sleep , but my mind was appeared somethings and might made me think about it .
how many " IF " I think out on these days ?
dead sure can made a paragraph . LOL .
I have been suffering . suffering everythings . :(
I hate I dislike the emo feelings came back again .
huh ?! ''

two days examination were ended , I can't predict what result I will get .
God bless me unless get some satisfication marks ..
sad but without any reasons ,
the most suffering problem ,it's occured on me ..

:(

21.22

like to blog whenever I am free , should say :" i always free . LOL "
the first exam I took in college , and the first subject - MALAYSIAN STUDIES .
my nightmare since I was secondary school , I have a poor memory ... :(
erm . When I opened up my exam paper . the first sight is " ohmygod ,shitt !"
lecture's notes are not came up .. but my mind are full of the notes ..
what can I do ? is nothings ! . just do whatever I can do ..
may god bless me please :(

one more paper to go ..^.^

22.19

学会忘记是生活上的技术，学会微笑是生活上的艺术。


今天和欣一同到麦当劳温习功课 ：）
尽量把该温习的都温习了。
头脑很满很满 ，不要忘记就好了。
我们选择吸烟区的桌位，
因为里面的都满了，只好选择在外。
一个靠窗的2人位 ，桌上摆放着2人份的麦当劳 ，
一边享受我们的午餐 ，一边噼哩叭啦的闲聊着。
桌位上铺满的都是sejarah 与 malaysian studies !! 真的懊恼。
哈哈 。
一待就待到五点多，我很享受 。

外面吹来的风，仿佛告诉了我，你一定要坚持下去，不能放弃，一定要。
我没有放弃，一直很努力 。
没有压力就没有了动力，我需要很大的动力让我前进。
目前知道，我这一科只有6个人。
真的恐怖，直到后也有点无奈，
一间课室尽然只有6位学生，4位华人，2位马来人 。
为什么pysiotherapy的那么多人啊 ，有点接受不到咯。
无奈*。*


*知道手机再也不会出现你的号码，也不会刻意去信息你，也不会删除你给我的信息*
很恐怖，遇到的怎么都是马来人。==

19.55

THURSDAY .

stay at home almost 4 days ,
doing short notes , memorise all the notes .
hope my brain won't retarded at the last minutes .
honestly , staying at home is freaking boring .
I more prefer to school than home .
really nothing can do except help mum do some housework .
but as well , I can rest my mind ! :) cheer up girl .
my mind is full of notes , I LOVE YOU , MALAYSIAN STUDIES .
I need YOU , YOU must stay at my mind ya .. I will let you once I leave the exam hall !
I miss my friends a lots .
especially those who I leave them at long time ago ,
tan ying yee ! , leong mun yee .! and bla bla ..
my dearest tan , I can't for 27of august , i can meet you already , almost 5 months we didn't see on each others , we only do contact via phone or skype :) , can you impersonate me into the exam hall ? haha . I need your smart brain as well ..

leong mun yee , my darling .. even our house is near . but we are busying until can't visit on it . hopefully my sem break can meet you :) leong leong ..

somemore my dearest friends .. IMISSYOUALL , BIG LAUGH !!

I like view some motivate quotes or inspiration quotes ,
it could help and motivate me when I really felt useless and lazy ..!!
bla bla bla .....
counting down 4 more days , exam started .
may you all have a nice day . nice mood . to prepare / sit for exam !

see you then ^_* ..

珍惜

人，要学会珍惜。
这几天 身体一直出现异状。
头一下晕和麻痹，
是否是压力 ？
放松放松，可是也不算是和害怕，
只是不想成绩考得不好，
只是害怕cgpa达不到标准 。
有很多的害怕 ，却不知该向谁申诉了。
换回以前的我一定会发个信息给他或是他申诉 。
现在却没有作出任何一个动作 。
因为我相信缘分是上天赐给我们的 ，
无需要再去强逼别人，
若是你的，自然会去到你的身边 。
那一晚的心情真的很纳闷 ，
找了位朋友申诉 ，
心情也放开多了 。
不能怨任何人，只能怪自己没那福分 。
今天，jane到我家温习功课。
倒数一星期就能把这讨人厌的malaysian studies消灭掉，哈哈

想念不想念也不该由我来做主了。
我相信GOD每一分一秒都在我身边保佑我 。
考试加油 ：）

pray for us , pray for you ,
do well and all the best in our memorable semester 1 .
let's us rock after our WAR !
HWAITING ... >.<

人生嘛。

我还是忍不住笑啦。哈哈

说快不快，2个月的sem 1 就这样结束了。

其实我真的很不舍得他们，他们就如我的知己 ，

有他们在，一定会有笑声与快乐，*除非我没心情拉，否则我一定会大笑*

今天和他们玩得好疯狂好开心，很久没有这种feelings了，

因为以前form 5 的同学一定会让我笑得好疯！哈哈

也拍了很多相片。哈哈。

我真的好开心 。

*其实我还是舍不得你*:(

last week .

this week is the last week for my sem 1
time flies , everythings getting to end .

I got my exam timetable already .
just involve 2 days , how wonderful of my exam.
I am starting to figure out how will my thailand trip would be !
hehe . :)
counting down , 2 weeks later !! yeah ^-^
btw , today is the last day for MALAYSIAN STUDIES too ..
I was confidence with my test , why will wrong so much .
duper hate la .. ishh ..
haha ..

I am being ignored my phone until it died ..
I totally forgot I need to charge my phone ,
huh . what wrong with me har .. ???
mind was full of you but I cant having or talk to you anymore ... :(
can't see you anymore ..
why ? is it the GOD kidding me , let me meet him but threw me away at the last .
that's why I had no confidence .
iknewiloveyou-savagegarden .mytruefeelingstoyou .

失眠

第一次的考试倒数15天左右 ，
心情非常紧张 而导致失眠
不断的看书温习 ，
2天就把百多页的malaysian studies chapter 1 n 2 digest 完 。
不晓得可以行得通没有，
无可否认 ， 夜间温习功课是特别精神 ，
所以每次睡不着就会阅读我的novel和sejarah ..

一切顺其自然就好了，我也不能做什么如果你要这样对我，
就这样，disconnect好了 。