失眠

第一次的考试倒数15天左右 ，
心情非常紧张 而导致失眠
不断的看书温习 ，
2天就把百多页的malaysian studies chapter 1 n 2 digest 完 。
不晓得可以行得通没有，
无可否认 ， 夜间温习功课是特别精神 ，
所以每次睡不着就会阅读我的novel和sejarah ..

一切顺其自然就好了，我也不能做什么如果你要这样对我，
就这样，disconnect好了 。

你不知道。

这几天都在烦恼车的事情，不预我所料 什么‘花言巧语’都出来了。

我没有再贬低自己的家人，可是有时候说话也我接受不到。

本来妈妈要购买新的viva给我，

可是debate出现了，最终还是不成功。

我直接对爸爸说出心理的话，‘ 不是他求人 ，是不明白求人的滋味 ’

从以前到现在 ，求人 的 时候我都犹豫了好久。

每一次每一次我都拆下自己的脸皮求人去这里那里。

我记得每一次每一次别人的是怎么说我的。

我真的没有要求要什么新车，我要的只是一个交通工具 。

我不开心是因为我心淡了。我失望了。

我更本都没有生气妈妈没有买新车给我。

我不停的对自己说，我没有别人那么幸运 。

我不是born with silver spoon .

我是一个需要靠自己才能得到自己的东西。

因为交通的关系，我想ogy说出了，如果交通的问题解决不到，我只好resign好了。

可以想象到以后的路会是怎么样 ，算吧，坚持下去就好了 。

mr j , why you so late just reply me .

but i x percaya byk lorrr ..

or is me think too much ..

can i believe what you have told me yesterday night ?

huh ... ....

失望。

我知道了答案。

原来，都是一样的。

emo-ing . :(

why ?

why ?

I pass my driving test , super duper happy .. :)

why my mood is damn down right now ?

i feel confused , is it somethings is changed ?

if like that , i more prefer before than now ...

huh . happy because can get license , sad because i got no car ..

mummy said want buy me a car , either second-hand or new VIVA .

I dont know what decision they will make ..

I hope can get it as fast as possible :(

besides that ,

why ? huh ...

someone is appear in my life right now ...

why ? huh ...

I dont know can I believe what he said .

I have not confidence at all ..

sometimes , i feel that dream is better than reality .

In dream , he is my handsome boy in college ..

but in reality , he is a such man in my life ...

how ?

he sms was suddenly stopped at yesterday night ..

what I need to care ?:(

2018

wednesday .

I'm busy finding or looking some part time which I have published in previous post before .

A person , who i'm knowing him since childhood . - wei lun .

he introduce me a promoter job at Hushpupies shop , jusco kepong .

because he is the one working there .

I still wondering at the previous day , should I go for interview ?

So , he had called me today .

I decided went there for interview , I did not expect their will request me .

But some problem I still need to face it , I wish can same shift with him , because he can drive me home safetly . the only problem . transport .....

* how good if I have a bf , so i no need scare ald *

* how good if I have a car , so I bet can work still late *

sunday is my first day . :)

10.41am

When I feel down and desperate , I will find some inspiration quote to confront myself .

emo-ing .

I feel good .

今天终于完成assignment了，轻松多了。

看了treassure INN ， 很好笑。哈哈。

简单就好 ：）