我不知道为什么要这样折磨自己。
有事没事，去想那些有的没的东西，
结果，很难过很不开心了。
要怎么才能做到很开心的人？
一个人？一件事物？
很不开心。
要怎么才能放开我的心！
要怎么样才能摆脱？！
:(
2013年1月30日星期三
2013年1月24日星期四
11.43pm
假期快结束了， 这3星期假期都在做工。
很简单的工作，却非常的累。
有时候状态真的很糟糕， 没有办法专心，结果就被骂了 =_=
真的很讨厌这样的自己。
放不下是一定了的，可是有些时候；一阵风吹来，也蛮刺痛的。:(
一句句刺入骨的话语，我只能强颜微笑。
当面具被揭开了，我无法再装下去了。
我也只能微笑逞强。
成绩也出了，真的很差！
但，也没有过度的不开心，可能已经成了事实了吧。
加油！
:)
很简单的工作，却非常的累。
有时候状态真的很糟糕， 没有办法专心，结果就被骂了 =_=
真的很讨厌这样的自己。
放不下是一定了的，可是有些时候；一阵风吹来，也蛮刺痛的。:(
一句句刺入骨的话语，我只能强颜微笑。
当面具被揭开了，我无法再装下去了。
我也只能微笑逞强。
成绩也出了，真的很差！
但，也没有过度的不开心，可能已经成了事实了吧。
加油！
:)
2013年1月12日星期六
0432
day after days, I'm turning in 20 soon. time really flies like nobody know. my 2012 was awesome and happened pretty much things that had made me either sad nor happy. *_*. year 2012 i think the most proud thing was i can be more independent. As others know, compare to my younger sister, I'm just like a PRINCESS and had princess sickness, everythings also need mummy, or the most used excuse was " I DON'T KNOW, or I DON'T WANT LA, I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DO".
So,last year, I got my first car from dad.and no choice I need to earn money and pump petrol . I worked as part time and drive alone to bangsar and back alone at night. That time was the tougher time for me, because, new learner and just got the car and need to go so far from my house.
then, 2012 I addicted to MOVIESssss. had been try watch same movie three times, now I think back, its kinda waste money.OHgosh.but,its was my sweetest moment and days, every day stick with someone special. ITS SO ROMANTIC SWEET AND HAPPY.
every little idiot things,every little sweetest moment,every difficulties that we suffered,every lies that we had cheated and every funny moment, every little happiness moment, every things that you had gave me and cheer me up, everywhere that we had traveled. There were our story,our memories and never been forgotten .
Well,
end of the year, I had been arranged to practical at somewhere south of Malaysia, segamat Johor. second time separated from family and friends for 5 weeks.
Consider as one of the challenges for us and me as well.
Don't know how to cook, how to manage things.
luckily rental house got washing machine and got a well-cooking sister there. My life balance back then.
Erm, except for it.
the other thing was separated with someone special. Before going, I was moody, because it's hard to accept I'm gonna leave him for 5 weeks. I know it's doesn't long compare to those who going by calculate by yearsss. Huh, I was telling him, will you miss me during that 5 weeks? But, he replied me and showed me 5 weeks was short, no need be so exaggerated about it. wtf of saying this SHIT.?
we still good when in first week then second weeks and thing happened on third weeks....
I never had this happening in my mind and my thought.
I never think about our relationship was kinda frangible.
and my heart was just like .... erm..
I'm able to control my emotional when I met my patient and people.
But when i'm alone, just reflect and opposite of it.
lesson learned " to maintain a relationship isn't easy thing." It's need tolerance from both, need patient and passion, need lots of things "
I love my year 2012 and 2013 please be good!
attempted to get a job, hopefully can get it soon..
:P
So,last year, I got my first car from dad.and no choice I need to earn money and pump petrol . I worked as part time and drive alone to bangsar and back alone at night. That time was the tougher time for me, because, new learner and just got the car and need to go so far from my house.
then, 2012 I addicted to MOVIESssss. had been try watch same movie three times, now I think back, its kinda waste money.OHgosh.but,its was my sweetest moment and days, every day stick with someone special. ITS SO ROMANTIC SWEET AND HAPPY.
every little idiot things,every little sweetest moment,every difficulties that we suffered,every lies that we had cheated and every funny moment, every little happiness moment, every things that you had gave me and cheer me up, everywhere that we had traveled. There were our story,our memories and never been forgotten .
Well,
end of the year, I had been arranged to practical at somewhere south of Malaysia, segamat Johor. second time separated from family and friends for 5 weeks.
Consider as one of the challenges for us and me as well.
Don't know how to cook, how to manage things.
luckily rental house got washing machine and got a well-cooking sister there. My life balance back then.
Erm, except for it.
the other thing was separated with someone special. Before going, I was moody, because it's hard to accept I'm gonna leave him for 5 weeks. I know it's doesn't long compare to those who going by calculate by yearsss. Huh, I was telling him, will you miss me during that 5 weeks? But, he replied me and showed me 5 weeks was short, no need be so exaggerated about it. wtf of saying this SHIT.?
we still good when in first week then second weeks and thing happened on third weeks....
I never had this happening in my mind and my thought.
I never think about our relationship was kinda frangible.
and my heart was just like .... erm..
I'm able to control my emotional when I met my patient and people.
But when i'm alone, just reflect and opposite of it.
lesson learned " to maintain a relationship isn't easy thing." It's need tolerance from both, need patient and passion, need lots of things "
I love my year 2012 and 2013 please be good!
attempted to get a job, hopefully can get it soon..
:P
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