9.21pm

finally exam was ended. 

i do not expect can get flying colour, just expect can get result which i can accept.

because of the trip, i wasted my 5 days times. 

hoho. X.P.

day 1. took 645pm flight to bangkok. reach there and took delicious dinner at chinatown.

super like for the foods there,2nd time been there and i still likey! 

day 2 , shopping day with the love <3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">

day3 , floating market and temple as usual. 

day 3, pattaya and love the beach there. sunburn and skin became dark.

all in one :D 

the trip was so relax for me, but at the last day, i was worrying .because final exam just start on the following week. I scare i didn't manage it well, yes, indeed, its kinda hard in both. but, at least i try my best :D 

one more thing, i hope i can get a big big big alarm, that can wake me up in the morning. idk what the heck am I, keep lying and not willing to wake up.=,=,

set 8am can woke at 10am,

set 4am can woke at 7.30am == 

Zzzz. i hate this kind of bad habit!

#thanks. :) 

1.07am

good thing has to wait =) 

trip to bangkok = 4 days

final exam = 11 days 

what a big challenging for me in between trip and final exam. has been away and head to bangkok for 5days and once I reached malaysia and need to sit for final. and yet I haven't touch my notes . I had lost all my plan, all my timing, and my timetable. I don't know what should I do first, helpless and useless to describe for myself. Monday was my last day for semester 4, date between us and mr kalai are getting lesser. Miss him lots and we totally lost a HEAD and our soul for guiding us to a right way, he always listened to us, gave us the best advice and taught us the BEST, even all of us fall asleep or felt sleepy during lecturer. . He will leave on 29 or 30 august,WHAT A SAD NEWS. 

my day are so free once I finished my semester, so, I decided follow my cousin to PASAR BORONG and help her around. hehe. I'm curious how does the PASAR BORONG look like during the night time. never felt regret for doing such moron things, somehow, people will says why this fella don't want sleep at home and wasted time here. hehe. its a good try, really! there was so crowed and people are so kind and friendly :) 

the august consider as a new try month. 

I love my hair, I wish to let my hair grows until hip or waist like that. So, I seldom go saloon for hair cut, because I think want to leave it and I can make it curly soon.

But then, my cousin's friend was thought I am his wife sister rather than a younger sister. I am so depressed on that day. black shit face, haha. 

my sister was advice me to cut it short, but ....... :)

hehe. 

my conclusion :" ask stylist la ask stylist la , i dont want too short :S) "

went saloon and sat there and asked what style suit me, he advice me cut it into medium and 50% of my hair were bye bye. 

in the same day, my spectacle was broke into two, ==

what a bad day! 

my cousin and sister teased me and said:" your spectacle also want to change a style ah, aunty!" 

speechless ==!

money flies and I want to save it :S 

erhem, so now, a better me APPEAR

I hope I will insists on beauty, take good care of my skin, always put toner,essence or mask on my face. 

I hope I will insists on it. haha:) 

AGE FOR A WOMAN IS DAMN SENSITIVE, NO ONES WILL HOPE SKIN TURN DULL OR OLD! 

the lesson I got and learned, thanks the guy for inspire me that i need to know such knowledge. =) hehe. 

btw, 

goodthingwillcomeafterastorm. 

=)  

GOD, PLEASE GUIDE TO ME TO A RIGHT WAY, RIGHT DECISION. 

LOVE AND APPRECIATE 

;) 

9.25

猜不透，想不清。

有时候，讨厌自大的我。

：机缘巧合- 人生，缘分，命运。 

心，很难定下来。知足点啦。

倒数16天，我的曼谷之旅又要开始囖 :) 

6.45

                                                                               hi,july. 

the only one in the world 

you have been passed so fast. and my life in july full of joy? erhem. perhaps.

short semester is killing me. tests, assignments,presentation come in once. 

the whole month just like chasing the time for doing this doing that. =,=

how i wish could modified my brain into super strong memory and i might put all notes into it after the lecturing. 

besides,

except go for college, the second thing I used to do was went to cousin's shop. 

the peaceful place for me to chill , and also can consider as a place where someone can talk to me. 

because sister and me also clashing with the time. if i stay at home, just like talking to the air. 

so, better go to a place can let me relax and chill. :)

july, 

the most poorest month .:(

since i need to pump petrol, just realize money goes fast like water.

every week has to spend at least rm100 on petrol,parking fees,foods,assignments....

I daren't go anywhere and spend anymore money, 

almost 2 months didn't go for movie,shopping . 

just hope can reduce my cost in the month and go for jogging instead of cinema. 

no doubts, mummy sister are nagging me because i am too fat :( fat round, thigh bigger, calf muscle bigger , all are bigger than before. 

I am lazy and do not exercise much. haha. 

nevertheless, 

in the mid-month of july, 

my night life was started. 

beloved cousin were brought sister and me went to pub.

the silly me did the silly thing until now still can't forget about it

felt extremely guilty and I DO NOT REGRET OF DRUNK AND DRINK SO MUCH.

consider as a good experience in my life. 

got my first badly drunk in age 19. I HAD TO RECORD IT IN MY LIFE BOOK. 

so next time, I CAN REMIND ME AND CONTROL MYSELF! <3

very long time didn't meet my gangs. 

really miss the moment when we chill. tea. talking nonsense, pm, and so much. 

urghhh. :-S

- thing comes when at the right moment. - 

a short visit during june with HOD, he will leave and continue his PHD at INDIA end of next month, miss :(

people change because of growing up. - cherish,appreciate. 

7.47

还有很多时候，还会独自个人乱想。

一切随缘吧。

miss.

这2天都没有课，所以也往亲戚店跑了。
哈哈。


有时候，也得相信这世界上是有奇迹与惊喜的。
嗯，
今天回到家，发现书桌上出现了一封信。
心里出现了疑惑，到底是什么啦？
是popular终于知道错了，寄会员卡来？
不是，看看；也没有特殊的记号。
但，往后翻却发现了jabatan kidmat negara 的。
一看到那字，立刻出现2个问题。
1。又要我回去？
2。还是寄sijil 来呢？
可是，通通都不可能阿。
一拆开了，原来他们对我住院期间做出赔偿。
我还以为他们忘了这回事情，原来没有^^
心情开心死了，虽然只是少许的数目，但是在我最穷这期间救了我。：）
感谢。

也去翻翻旧相片，才发现我怀念了。
怀念里面的一切，
还有，那时候的我真的好瘦！
我要回去那时候的身材阿。

哈哈哈哈，好了，要继续温习了^^

6.33

alcohol may bring you happiness at the moment,
but would give you uncountable of suffering.
well, I am not able to sleep for whole night.
slept at 3am, but then woke up at 5.30am
thanks GOD today is Saturday, and I don't need to do anything!


sometimes, 
I really hard to communicate with YOU.
YOU make me feel more afeared .